||[Mar. 24th, 2010|♥12:34 pm]
It's me, an outlaw
|[||This is how it feels...
So, I'm a lot more upset than I put out.
I was really starting to fall for this kid.
And upon our breakup
He came out of the closet
Good for him
Not so good for me
I just feel sad and low
All the time and affections shared
All an act
And I'm not angry
I can't be angry
I'm just painfully low
I know that time will heal me, it has before.
But it kind of makes you doubt the world.
It just kind of sickens me. Not the gay thing per se.
But the it was all a lie thing.
And the going through me thing to realize that.
I feel like a damn tunnel. The other side is the highway.
Oh, and my rat pretty much has the black plague.
Fucking sweet. Oh wait. No.
But he still has lice or mites.
Awesome. Something must have came in that new fucking food or something.
Because I CAN SEE THEM.
I could never see them before. This is horrifying and awful
Beyond any description.